Life, Love, and Washing Dishes

There is absolutely NOTHING better than cake, fresh out of the oven, for dinner.

Except perhaps being sore from an excellent dance audition 10 hours earlier.

Still obsessed with this song.  Whenever I hear it, I turn it up and sing it really really loudly.  Please, click and listen and share in my joy!

I'm sidetracked easily.

The reason I started writing today was to complain about all of the nonsense in my life.  But I don't want to complain because that's just negative reinforcement.  So instead, let's talk about the good.  I already mentioned cake and the wonderful feeling of sore muscles - and no that's not sarcasm.  But there's also philosophical conversations with roommates about life, love, and washing dishes.

And then there's the show.

How I Learned to Drive.  It's draining, but fantastic.  I'm losing my mind, I'm behind in school work, and I'm living in a disaster of a room, but I'm loving it.  The show is dark.  It's hilarious.  It's so incredibly thought provoking that each night that I'm lucky enough to have my car, I drive home the few short blocks and wish I was driving a hundred miles more.  Instead I sit in the dark and let whatever song happens to be on play out and watch the minutes turn over on the dashboard clock.  I think about the way love functions in the play.  I think about how love functions in my life.  I think about how much I hate people.  And how much I need them.  I think about how I wish I could write something with meaning.  I think about how I want to change the world.  I think about coffee.  And I think about my mother.  I think about how easy it would be to just start up the car and drive the 14 hours to Rolla.  I think about how much pain there is in the world.  I think about how often I waste my time and energy.  I think about a time when I'll love someone so much that my soul will break when they're gone.  I think about cooking and candles and how to make decisions.  I think about how good it would feel to cry.  I think about how that seems to be universal.  And I think about how to move forward.

I think that's all I have to say right now.